even though i feel like i should be stressed as fuck right now i’m actually the happiest i’ve been in so, so long. no more toxic energy in my life and it’s wonderful.
can’t even express how happy i am to feel like myself again and i just want to meet new people and laugh and drink a lot of wine and do some drugs and maybe kiss some girls
I just want a nice, big, tall, strong bearded boy who will play video games and get drunk with me and we will be so funny and we’ll laugh ALL the time, and my family will love him, and he’ll hold my hand and play with my hair and tell me funny things all the time and and make me feel nice and safe and not lonely and sad and also maybe won’t wanna fuck every other girl
that would be perfect can the gods please deliver
I feel weirdly optimistic and it’s so nice to have that because I haven’t felt it in a really long time. I just want every negative aspect of my life to disappear. I want to be kind and I want other people to be kind to me. I want to get a job, I want to go out to new places and make new friends and I want to start having fun again. I’m just so sick of sadness and I want every last, disgusting, toxic bit of it out of me, and out of the space around me. I want to feel fucking happy and beautiful and empowered and keep loving myself and stop wasting so much time tending to the negative.